April Snow?

If April showers bring May flowers than what does April snow and hail bring?

Yes, that's right, after a day and a half of glorious sunny spring weather, the tempature dropped suddenly on Satuday afternoon and that night it hailed and the next moring it snowed--enough to stick for a good while. Now today we're back to Glasgow's default weather--cold and overcast.

Ok, so for the more sober part of the blog. I had a bit of a self revelation on Sunday. I know I've stopped talking about it here, but some of you may remember me posting about my growing frustration at my church here in Glasgow. I had dropped out of the prayer group, but sunday sermons were still a weekly source of anger. It kept growing and growing till I'd be bracing myself before sermons or synically wondering what he would say to piss me off this time. Watching the all-male group of deacons distribute the bread and wine added a cynical edge even to communion (what? they really can't find even one woman worthy to be a deacon in the church? And people shrug it off as "a bit oldfashioned" but it's all of a piece!).

But I finally realized this Sunday that I'd fallen into the trap. I'd let my anger at the religious trappings interfear with my relationship with God. Where in the begining it had just driven me to prayer more--albeit often quiet rant-like prayers--I've hardly prayed at all recently. I haven't done any of the religious reading I meant to do. Spiritual contemplation doesn't even occur to me. So, it's time to take a deep breath and start repairing that relationship.